Welcome to my first blog post. So why am I starting a blog? I’m wanting to share my experiences of pregnancy and becoming a new mum, while hopefully, hearing from others too. Pregnancy can be quite lonely. My husband has been amazing throughout and I have lots of support from my family and friends but I still feel a bit alone. This is the first baby for both sets of grandparents and I’m the first of my friends to have a baby so I don’t really feel that I have people to talk to – nobody close to me has a young baby. I’m feeling a bit alone in general, if I’m honest. I’m not working right now. I am a teacher but decided to leave my job in July and I’ve registered with a supply agency. Up to now, I haven’t had any work, but it is still early in the term. The only company I have all day is our two rabbits and then my husband when he gets home from work. As much as I love them, I do miss going out and seeing people.
I love being pregnant. I love having a bump. I love feeling Baby wriggling and kicking. There really is no feeling like it. Saying that though, part of me just wants to fast forward and have Baby in my arms right now, although we are definitely not prepared at all! The pram and car seat have been ordered but that’s about it. We haven’t even started on the nursery. It’s just been the ‘spare bedroom’ for the last 18 months, so it needs emptying and then decorating. We’re not in a great rush though. Are we too laid back? Probably.
I’ll tell you a little bit about our life over the last year or so. We married in August 2017, after being together for almost nine years. We had a mini-moon straight after the wedding to Barcelona but our ‘proper’ honeymoon was to Florida for Christmas 2017. We’d talked about trying for a baby straight after the wedding but then we decided that we’d wait until after Christmas. We had no idea how soon it would happen. So we decided to start trying when we got back and we were really quite lucky as it only took two months. Before we found out, I was starting to panic, thinking maybe it’s not the right time. Are we really ready for this? Little did I know, I was already a few weeks pregnant. It took five positive tests before I actually believed it.
The first few weeks were hard. I had lots of sickness and not always in the morning. It was especially hard because we felt it was too early to tell anyone. I was teaching and luckily I had an amazing teaching assistant who helped me out a lot, bringing me ginger biscuits to help with the sickness and taking over when I felt exhausted. The second trimester has been much better. I’ve had common symptoms like tiredness, heartburn and horrible oily skin but I’ve got really thick hair and strong nails so I guess it’s not so bad! For our first anniversary, we had a few days away in Majorca and I felt great (apart from the tiredness and heartburn). I’ve never felt so comfortable in a bikini. I felt confident knowing that I had a reason for my tummy not to be flat. I do still look down sometimes and think ‘where did that come from?!’
We have had some problems during the pregnancy. We had a scare when I was only around 8 weeks but thankfully everything was fine. Then around 10 weeks, I was told that I had a virus which had shown in my bloods. I had had Slapped Cheek (probably caught from a child at school) but hadn’t had any symptoms. The consultant told us it could be quite harmful for the baby and could cause it to become anaemic. From 15 weeks, I had to be scanned every week, while they checked the blood flow to the baby. We were so nervous before each scan but it was amazing seeing Baby grow week by week. By week 19, there were no abnormalities showing and the consultant was confident that the virus had not harmed the baby. We were so relieved.
Baby now kicks and wriggles a lot and has started to have a routine. When mummy wants to relax or sleep, Baby wriggles! I was asked by a friend, when I was around 14/15 weeks, how did I feel about the baby and did I love it yet? I’d already thought about this. I felt protective over the baby but I didn’t feel like I loved it. I wasn’t sure if that made me a bad mum but I think it was because it didn’t feel real. Yes, I’d seen the baby on the scan but I still didn’t really believe there was a baby growing inside me. But that all changed the first time I felt Baby move. I fell in love with it at that moment and I think it was at that point that I realised, I’m going to be a mum. I’m now approaching the third trimester and can’t believe how quickly it’s going. Baby is due 23rd December and I’m noticing lots of Christmas countdowns. It is flying by but I’m fully expecting it slow down and for me to get fed up. I can be quite impatient.
So, today I’m 26 weeks and 3 days. I can’t wait to see what the next few months have in store for us. We’ve still got a long way to go until we’re prepared for Baby’s arrival but I’m excited for the journey as we become Mummy and Daddy. We’re attending a Hypnobirthing session at the weekend which I’m really looking forward to.
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